It is what it is

I think I hit a level where everything got too big and I popped. I’m pretty numb to everything and I’ve managed to put on my logical hat and set aside unwelcome emotions. I don’t need anything holding me hostage right now.

Mom had her knee replacement surgery on Tuesday and the actual replacement went fine (whew) but she’s been having a lot of complications with the pain meds from having allergic reactions to throwing up to having her oxygen levels tank. She’s been in the hospital for an extra two days now because of it. Does it make me scared for my upcoming replacement? I don’t know, sure, but I can’t worry about that right now. It is what it is.

I went up to see her yesterday. I could see in her face how much pain she was in. Her cheeks were red with pain. She’s on a pretty heavy-hitting pain med too. She managed to eat a pretty good dinner while I was there, most she had eaten thus far. She needs it to gain her energy back. No telling when they will let her go home, it’s all about her oxygen levels at this point.

Easter this Sunday. Much to do yet for the kids and prepare. Planning on seeing both grandparents on that day so it will be busy.