I really hate croup

It’s been such a rollercoaster with Zahkya and her croup. The day after she got the IV steroid she was hyper and super emotional and she had meltdowns like a 2-year-old; however, for the most part, she was doing ok, almost like she had just a bad cold. So all the behavioral changes, although hard, it was worth it to have her feeling better. She did have fevers the next two nights after the steroids and she acted more herself yesterday than the previous days. I know she was excited about Halloween and she was a trouper and trick-or-treated almost as long as Tristyn did but she pooped out and lost her energy and even asked to go to bed last night.

Last night was the worst night yet. She couldn’t get comfortable and had several occasions where she had a hard time breathing. Then she had another episode where she couldn’t get enough air and her lips were starting to turn blue. It’s a scary time for a Mom, to see your kid suffering and screaming for help as you scramble for breathing treatments and inhalers, and anything that would help her get oxygen. The breathing treatments worked however but not as well as the other night. Her breathing the rest of the night was loud and I ended up staying awake with her because she was too scared to go back to sleep. Poor thing has been up since 2:30 this morning. I tried giving her a nap today but as soon as she laid down her coughing fits would be too much and her breathing started getting irritated again and she finally gave up on sleeping even with how tired she was. So I decided to take her back to urgent care today. They gave her more steroids but told us if she has another one of those scary episodes at night to take her to the ER right away. I’m hoping the steroids do the job and give us a few days more so she can get over this virus. I really hate croup. It’s so scary.

I’ve been up with her every night since Friday and I’m running on empty. I have nothing in the tank. I am struggling to function and I realized that I haven’t eaten since breakfast yesterday morning. I gotta make dinner tonight and I just don’t think I have it in me but I can’t let everyone starve.