So food is weird now

When I first got home from the hospital, I had to be around food again. I had to make it, I had to watch other people eat it. Food that I love eating, food that smelled so very delicious. I knew I couldn’t have it. It’s clear liquids for me for the first two weeks and then it moves on to pureed food. Then it’s soft proteins and such from there on out until I’m completely healed. On the first day back I went through a bit of a mourning period. I really wanted all that food. I wanted it back, my stomach, even though it was impossible for me to do so. My family was eating such big bites and such yummy food.

On the second and third days of being home, it changed a little. I saw a bunch of food I enjoy and love but the want, the need for it wasn’t as strong. I didn’t feel like I was missing out. They had pizza, from a new place and this pizza looked fabulous but I was ok not eating it. This is a whole new world I will have to navigate through. I want to keep exactly on my path because it’s easier to do.

Post-op with doctor and dietitian today. They wrote down my weight wrong right before going into surgery so if they took that weight they put into the computer wrong then it would have shown that I gained weight today. I showed him my weight entry which I logged before going to the hospital and it was exactly 20 pounds off, so clearly an error on their part. So that puts me at 7 pounds weight loss so far, yay.

Next week I can start eating pureed food. Scrambled eggs. Cottage cheese. Smoothies. I’m so excited. I’m so happy to be on this journey and my hips feel fantastic being on these pain meds. It’s the best they have felt in a year. I hope this lasts.