The day before school … I’m a wreck!

I keep checking Tristyn’s backpack to make sure he has everything.

I’ve checked his school supply list a dozen times today. Yes, he has everything. We dropped off most of the items when we went to his school’s open house. He got to sit down at his desk and meet his teacher. Mrs. G is going to be awesome. I’m still a wreck.

I’ve double, triple, 10000x checked all the websites I’m supposed to be signed up to track his progress and his school lunches. Every time I check I’m reminded that I haven’t forgotten anything. He has his masks, he has his water bottle, everything has his name on it. Everything is in place. I’m still a wreck.

Tristyn couldn’t be more excited about school. His attitude is great about leaving me for a big portion of the day. One of his best friends will be in his kindergarten class and they are both so excited about that. So am I. Tristyn know’s another little boy who will be in the classroom down the hall that he knows from karate. Tristyn told me he’s not going to have a problem at all staying there for 7 hours a day. I’m so proud of him for his bravery and confidence. I’m still a wreck.

I’ve spent the last month making test drives to his school. I’ve driven around the neighborhood his school is in so I’m familiar with all the roads. I’ve made test drives using every single way I know to get to that school (there are three different roads to get in). I’ve made the drive down the drop-off lane preparing both him and myself for the actual first day of school. Replaying both verbally and physically the moment of drop off. I even took the child lock off the door so he could get out on his own.

ON. HIS. OWN.

Whoa. Just typing that out brings the gravity of what I feel to a new level. This is what I’ve prepared him for for the last 5 almost 6 years of his life. This is when he walks, on his own two feet and starts making those little decisions that will be with him the rest of his life. This is where he starts to practice that. I will miss him but I’m equally as excited to see him grow and blossom without me too.

I am such a wreck…