I am so sick

I haven’t been this sick since I was a child. My throat is covered with big white sores and the glands under my chin and my neck are so swollen. It doesn’t even look like I have a neck right now. Even swallowing spit hurts. I’m miserable. I just made myself a cup of green tea to sip on just to keep hydrated.

I don’t even know what to do. I don’t feel like doing anything because my pain is peaked at the moment. I always have my never-ending constant hip pain and it’s only gotten worse and it’s about the max I can handle. Any additional pain on top of that and it’s just over the top. I can’t handle it. I wish I could just sleep. Sleep would be the greatest escape and be good for my body but, I have the kids.

Z-Library went down on TOR yesterday and I just figured that would be the end of that. The telegram bot is ever faithful and hasn’t gone down yet but the actual website just shows so much more. There was an update to TOR this morning and as soon as I did the update Z-Library started working again. Thank goodness. I don’t know what I would do without this website. Reading is my life. Books are just too expensive for me to buy and the library just doesn’t have everything I want to read, there are long holds and wait times. I can’t read a series in order back to back. Yes, I understand that it hurts the authors, but books these days, even in ebook form are astronomical in price. Taken from Z-Library’s blog:

We believe the knowledge and cultural heritage of mankind should be accessible to all people around the world, regardless of their wealth, social status, nationality, citizenship, etc. This is the only purpose Z-Library is made for.

It was made for people, like me. It was made for all people. And it’s deeply appreciated.