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Meet Pearl
We went to the Humane Society of Weld County on the 6th of May to just “look” at some of the dogs available for adoption. I had a few smaller dogs picked out that I wanted to see but as soon as we walked in all the dogs I wanted to see got adopted within the first 10 minutes of us being there. We decided to go browse and see what else they had anyway. Most of the dogs were jumping up on the window and barking at us as soon as we passed by their kennel. Except one. She just turned around and looked me in the eye and…
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Things that annoy me
There are several things that have really annoyed me lately. When I say to someone, I’ve been up early and running non-stop today, and have them say, me too. For one, I know that I’ve done about a zillion more things than they have, I know that they went out to casual lunch, I know that they have taken a nap and I know they have only walked less than half a mile. Sure, maybe it was a busy day, for THEM but damn, don’t compare that to my day when I’ve done 10,000 more things and never got to sit down once. It’s not the same. Don’t compare. Napping…
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My Molly is gone
Molly wasn’t eating her food like usual and was sleeping. She was sleeping a lot. I decided to take her to the vet. The vet took X-rays and bloodwork. Fluid was building up around her heart and lungs, probably due to some sort of cancer the vet said. Her liver enzymes were 6 times higher than normal. It was a Friday when this happened. Friday morning. I asked the question I knew I needed to ask. Is this the end? Yes, the vet replied. This is the end. I said, let’s schedule the appointment for Monday. I needed to have the weekend with her. I needed enough time to say…
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Working for what you want
I got a phone call yesterday from my bariatric office. I’m scheduled for surgery at the end of February. I can’t believe the time is finally here. I’ve been anticipating this so much and looking so forward to it. I’ve cut back on my coffee and come February 1st I’ll quit caffeine altogether. I guess the caffeine eats through the staples so I can’t have any caffeine before or directly after the surgery until I’m all healed up. I can do that. I need to start getting in the habit of logging my food however, I started and then blamed being too busy as a reason why I stopped. I…
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Back to school
The alarm was set at 6 am this morning and neither of my kids wanted to get up. I was surprised that Zahkya was still sleeping as she’s usually up between 4 am-5 am. Not this morning, however. After I shut the alarm off I turned on the lamp in the bedroom thinking that would wake them up. Nope. I don’t blame them, I was tired too. Tristyn was apprehensive about going to school today because he was up so early but I kept reassuring him that he’d feel differently after seeing his friends and teacher. He said he had a stomach ache right before I dropped him off but…
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Post-sickness
I don’t know what I picked up but I picked up something, somewhere. I was starting to cough on Christmas Eve, I didn’t think much of it, just a cough. I’ve been coughing for 4 solid months with one thing or another. This one however, progressed until it was a really wet and deep cough. Then the body aches started. Then the congestion hit and the sinus pressure started pushing my face bones outwards. Pure misery. Here I am 3 days later and I’m still struggling. I’m over the aches for the most part and I’m mostly over the congestion due to Musinex-D but my lungs are wrecked from this…
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I’m not ok.
Everyone hits a moment in life where they are just not ok. It could be for whatever reason, whatever situation, or whatever circumstance. This week has been extremely challenging and my world has started to turn over and do flips. There are heavy things happening in the background, not of which I want to share. I feel my bubble crumbling and breaking quicker than I can keep up. My heart is broken and tugged and pulled in so many directions and my heart knows what I have to do. I will do it. That’s not a question. The future is the question. How can I maintain this strength? How can…
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tWitch dead at 40
This makes me so sad. I just saw this headline come across my iWatch. I couldn’t believe it. I watched him make headlines on So you think you can dance and go on to be the DJ on Ellen. He was always so full of energy and he had the kindest smile. He died by suicide. Man. It goes to show you that everyone is facing their own struggles and suffering no matter what mask they put on for everyone else.
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Migraine Problems
Yesterday my migraine held on tight and refuse to leave me. I was free of appointments and tasks other than taking Tristyn to school and watching Zahkya here at home. I pretty much stayed in bed most of the morning with my puke bucket and a pillow over my head. This migraine was unrelenting and had a lot of pressure associated with it. I took my blood pressure several times and it was scary high. I kept getting readings like 150/106, 146/110, etc. when I usually run around 120/80 the majority of the time. That nudged me enough to go to the ER. Mom came and picked up Zahkya and…
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Mom life is a hard life
I woke up yesterday with a lot of sinus pressure and a nagging throbbing in my right temple. That’s where all my headaches are, the same place every time. To compound that, I had a really stiff neck too. I knew I had a giant day ahead of me so I tried to ignore the headache and got the kids around and took Tristyn to school. When I got home I prepped the carrots, celery, potatoes, mushrooms, and beef stew meat and got it all in the crock pot to cook on low for 8 hours so I could have dinner for us when the time came. My headache continued…