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I’m not ok.
Everyone hits a moment in life where they are just not ok. It could be for whatever reason, whatever situation, or whatever circumstance. This week has been extremely challenging and my world has started to turn over and do flips. There are heavy things happening in the background, not of which I want to share. I feel my bubble crumbling and breaking quicker than I can keep up. My heart is broken and tugged and pulled in so many directions and my heart knows what I have to do. I will do it. That’s not a question. The future is the question. How can I maintain this strength? How can…
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Food aversion therapy today
Zahkya has her first occupational therapy appointment today for her food aversion problem. She still won’t try new foods and she still has major sensory issues with her mouth. I have to take foods that she will eat and also take foods that I want her to eat. I don’t have very many of those foods so we’ll see. I really hope this helps her. It’s a long drive to Fort Collins so I hope it’s worth it. I wish they had something closer. I got almost all the presents wrapped the night before last night. I still have a few to go but I feel much better having the…
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tWitch dead at 40
This makes me so sad. I just saw this headline come across my iWatch. I couldn’t believe it. I watched him make headlines on So you think you can dance and go on to be the DJ on Ellen. He was always so full of energy and he had the kindest smile. He died by suicide. Man. It goes to show you that everyone is facing their own struggles and suffering no matter what mask they put on for everyone else.
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Hematology Appointment
I had my hematology appointment yesterday. It went well. He saw my history of being iron deficient and ordered more bloodwork to be done. Those results came back rather fast. I was off on 5 out of the 6 tests ordered. They called me shortly after saying that I needed iron infusions and that they would call and set those up as soon as it was approved by insurance. I’m not surprised. I expected this. Hopefully, the iron infusions will make me feel better and give me more energy. My hematology doctor is in the cancer center and boy was it nice in there. They even had a grand piano.…
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Migraine Problems
Yesterday my migraine held on tight and refuse to leave me. I was free of appointments and tasks other than taking Tristyn to school and watching Zahkya here at home. I pretty much stayed in bed most of the morning with my puke bucket and a pillow over my head. This migraine was unrelenting and had a lot of pressure associated with it. I took my blood pressure several times and it was scary high. I kept getting readings like 150/106, 146/110, etc. when I usually run around 120/80 the majority of the time. That nudged me enough to go to the ER. Mom came and picked up Zahkya and…
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Mom life is a hard life
I woke up yesterday with a lot of sinus pressure and a nagging throbbing in my right temple. That’s where all my headaches are, the same place every time. To compound that, I had a really stiff neck too. I knew I had a giant day ahead of me so I tried to ignore the headache and got the kids around and took Tristyn to school. When I got home I prepped the carrots, celery, potatoes, mushrooms, and beef stew meat and got it all in the crock pot to cook on low for 8 hours so I could have dinner for us when the time came. My headache continued…
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Zahkya turned 5
My little girl is growing up so fast. She’s such a character and I love her unique personality. Time is a thief, I want her to be my little girl forever.
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Health Updates
There are so many health updates going on with my kiddos. Tristyn’s chronic cough still hasn’t gone away. They have thrown 4 rounds of antibiotics, 4 rounds of steroids, and a month of asthma meds at him with no change. His doctor referred him to Children’s Hospital in Denver for further evaluation. Zahkya had a doctor’s appointment on Friday and they ordered a bunch of bloodwork and urine analysis, and I had to collect a stool sample from her. Her bloodwork showed high inflammation markers, and her urine was fine, but her stool sample showed she had a type of food poisoning and an e. Coli infection. Her ear infection…
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Tristyn turned 7
The boy that made me a Momma just turned 7 on November 27th. I am so extremely proud of this kid. He’s everything I wish I could have been.
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I am so sick
I haven’t been this sick since I was a child. My throat is covered with big white sores and the glands under my chin and my neck are so swollen. It doesn’t even look like I have a neck right now. Even swallowing spit hurts. I’m miserable. I just made myself a cup of green tea to sip on just to keep hydrated. I don’t even know what to do. I don’t feel like doing anything because my pain is peaked at the moment. I always have my never-ending constant hip pain and it’s only gotten worse and it’s about the max I can handle. Any additional pain on top…